Thursday, February 12, 2009

19 years 364 days old...

The things I've experienced in 19 years and 364 days have been both good and bad.

1. I have grown to love the most amazing people.
2. I have the most amazing family in my life
3. I've lost 3 grandparents, and 1 parent. 
4. Survived many things I shouldn't have
5. Made really stupid and awesome mistakes
6. Regretted a lot of them
7. Spent a lot of time trying not to regret them
8. Loved unconditionally
9. Graduated High School
10. Gotten on the Deans list at ISU
11.Fought way too much with the people with i love
12. Loved way too many people I shouldn't have
13. Cared enough, too much, and not enough
14. Found the most amazing best friend in the world, all the whil she was right beside me... my Mom
15. Gone through a roommate
16. Kissed plenty of boys
17. Wondered if they were the right ones
18. Gained an amazing Step-dad
19. Gained the most amazing step siblings and nieces
20. Believed that it doesn't matter if they are blood, they are my family and I love them
21. Freaked out about the future
22. Conquered anxiety disorder
23. Discovered I have PCOS
24. Talked way too mcuh
25. Spent wayy too much money
26. Cried
27. Laughed
28. Made A difference
29. Didn't do enough
30. Loved every minute of it.

I love you all, and thank you all of you for making my life an amazing experience. Mom, I'm sorry if the past 19 years 364 days have been hell, but the next 20 will be better. I love you and You're my best friend. Thank you for all that you do! 

Love you all!

Friday, February 6, 2009

Going Home!

Wow, It's been an incredibly long week here at the ILSTU! I've written papers, read over 500 pages of crap, and participated in all my extra cariculars(SP). It's times like these that I want to quit. Just put everything down, pack my stuff and go home!

So.... that's what I'm doing! Not quitting, but going home. I miss my Mommy. I don't know if any of you haven't noticed yet, but I am a HUGE mommies girl! I call her at least 3 times a day, and every time i hear her voice it makes my heart hurt a little. Of course I know that I am growing up and I love my life here at ISU, but I will never ever lose the pain of missing my mom. I think some of it has a huge deal to do with losing my dad at such a young age, and i just attached, but I think a lot of it is because she is my best friend.

Mom, I know you're probably crying right now, and thats ok. Here's the thing, when I wake up in the morning the first thing I want to do is call my mom. Just to hear her voice and know that she is thinking of me too. AND she always talks good sense into me.

I love home. I know this blog is so random... but it's what's on my mind right now. Tonight when I travel home after work, I"m totally crawling into bed with my Mommy and it'll be the best thing ever!!

Saturday I will spend the day with her and then spend the evening with my best friends, Elizabeth and Sara, and we'll probably laugh until we cry. I hope everyone realizes that while these people are amazing, so are my peeps at ISU. I laugh so hard with my girls here, and I have connections with some of them that I don't think could ever be made anywhere else. The only thing that could make this trip home better would be if Matt, Becky, and Alice were waiting there for me... I'm not including Maggie, Mike, Kaylee, or Rae because they'll be enjoying the warm weather in TUSCON TOGETHER!! (but seriously, I wish you guys were coming too)

ANYWAY..... I'm going home tonight and I'm super excited about it!
1. I get to see my Mommy
2. I get to see Elizabeth and Sara
3. I get birthday presents!! YAYY!!!

Love you all!